Racing the Darkness.

Racing the Darkness.

The trees sparkle with fireflies,

Late night, and we're all alone.

They're racing the darkness,

And I'm racing home.

My foot on the pedal,

My mind in the clouds,

And my heart dissolving

Under earthen shrouds.

Roadside, my eyes catch a glimpse

Of a friend, a foe, a follower:

My motor's speeding shadow,

And it blazes as I cower.

The sight of it making me ache,

As I yearn to break free

From this heavy, dark, unseemly fate

Of a life bound by me.

Written 6.13.10 @ approximately 12:00 AM

'Til our fingers touch again...

'Til our fingers touch again...

I didn't want to say goodbye. And the longer we stood there, the more distant and dreamlike the memories of our beautiful time became. I wanted us to hold each other forever. I gave you my newest poem, inspired by your tenderness, and told you to save it for later. We kissed and hugged a while. And eventually, after a few failed attempts to part ways, we let go and our fingers lost touch... I hated the feeling of weightlessness in my hand once your fingers were no longer resting in it. It was sudden and cruel.

Written 6.8.10 @ approximately 9:00 AM

The Mapping Out of Love.

The Mapping Out of Love.

I follow the map of your body,
Tracing its hills and valleys
With my love-thirsty index finger:
The fleshy, naive wanderer
In search of truth and beauty
On this fleeting, faulted earth.

But in all its years of wayward travel,
Never did it find such phantom treasures.
And the hope and wonder in its flesh
Began to fade,
Like the ink once used to draw
The very first maps of this earth:
Now worn down by life, forgotten by man.

Until you.
Until it touched your cool terrain.
Until it crossed your love-drenched plains.
And suddenly, all the beauty of the world
Was fused into this ancient flesh of mine
Through you
And the treasures I found
Flourishing across your landscape.

Written 5.20.10 @ 11:06 PM and 5.27.10 @ 10:50 AM

LovePail.

LovePail.

Water my heart with your lovepail.

Let its tiny, enriching pores

Drip countless beads of affection

Onto my cardial core.

Watch the nectar saturate

Its every valve and vein,

And feel my pulse's first true pump

From the love that you let rain

Upon me.

Written 5.12.10 @ 6:17 PM

Yearning to be free, free as a bird.

Yearning to be free, free as a bird.

I'm sitting outside here, on my patio. The swiftly moving gray skies surround me, but birds still chirp all around, like on a beautiful sun-filled day. And one of them landed on the ledge of the patio roof, just a moment ago. Perched not far from where I sat. I whistled to it, seeing if I could imitate another bird. It sat there for a few seconds, not falling for my ruse. Then, out of nowhere, it took flight and sailed across our backyard and out of sight. And sudden tears ran down my face. I thought for a moment and knew why...

This bird could do what I could not: It didn't like its situation, and in an instant, broke free of it. It had felt scared or threatened or unhappy or trapped. And it took to flight. Breaking free from its boredom or unhappiness or fear. It lifted off and flew away from everything that could've held it back. And for once, just once, I wish I had the strength to soar. To break free from this body of mine.

Written 4.26.10 @ 5:28 PM

My Body, My Foe.

My Body, My Foe

This body is my foe.

It holds my heart

And lets it grow,

Then steals away

The love it sowed.

Thus I am forever prone

To being left empty

And alone,

Dreaming of a life

Unknown.

Written 4.26.10 @ 3:30 PM

With You.

With You.

You will be the thing that breaks me.

If you won't have me, Life will take me.

Its widowed lover, I shall feel

And its hollow heart will reel

When my quest becomes my steal

And a widower it shall stand

With my broken heart in hand

And the memories of a life I planned

With you.

Written 4.21.10 @ 8:26 PM

The Dark Dive of a Sunny Soul.

The Dark Dive of a Sunny Soul

If the sun would shine through

I'd find a way to meet you

In the darkened corridors

Of where the earth conceived you

But the light is fading

And my heart is craving

Sea and sky and open doors

Instead of life in waiting

But your soul is blameless

And though the light's contagious

I'll dive into the black of night

In hopes that it will save us.

Written 3.12.10 @ 6:25 PM