Never What I Remember.

Never What I Remember

This single day of joy,

Bedecked with merriment and youth

And plagued by dreams of that one toy

That will prove to me this season's truth,

As a child, was so wondrous.

And all the days leading unto it,

My cheer was pure and boundless,

And the glee born then was a conduit

That would last me all the year.

But time has long since grown,

And with each passing season I fear

That the magic I once had known

Is now gone for all my years.

(For the joy I now try so hard to find is never what I remember.)

Written 12.25.09 @ 12:10 AM

Inner Child.

Inner Child

I am a child, through and through
Time can't take that away from you
My mind is bright with drawings and dreams
And my heart is light with wondrous feelings
Forever and on, whether wrinkled or fair
I will always love, and laugh, and scare
As only a child can truly do
For I am a child, through and through.

Written 10.25.09 @ 11:58 PM

The Child's Face.

The Child's Face

Last night I dreamt I had a child,
Small and newly-born,
But not from my frail womb

He came to me by a brother
Who carried him in his arm
Alongside my bright-eyed nephew

My older kin acted routinely,
But I knew something was different,
This child's face was special and new

So I took him in my arms
Holding our hearts together
And in that moment knew:

He was mine.

Written 10.12.09 @ 9:36 PM

A Little Less.

A Little Less

I'll never walk with ease and steady breath,
Like all the world can do
I'll never carry my own child
Inside this precious womb
I'll never see myself grow old,
Gray hairs the treasures for all my years lived
I'll never keep up with you
No matter what I give

And everyday, I feel my body give a little less
And everyday, I fight not to feel powerless
But my body decides for me
And now I feel so very sleepy.

Written 9.29.09 @ 10:23 PM